Every day I wake up. There is always a moment of pure silence, a certain peace, as soon as I first become conscious. And then I open my eyes and everything rushes back like a flood. Who I am, what I’ve done, who I’m becoming. I always try to determine if I’ve changed overnight. I … More Waking Up
It’s funny sometimes, for me to wash off my makeup at the end of the day and see the face in the mirror looking back at me. It’s shiny and clean and new, and I almost feel like a different person. I rub off the dirt, the tears, the facade. It’s like I’ve been wearing … More Clean
My life is so confusing. Just when I think I have one problem solved, another rushes in to take its place. At the moment, I’m battling feelings. Feelings of love. Feelings of resentment. Feelings of loneliness. It’s wearing me down. I just handle things SO badly, and I don’t know where to go from here. … More Fighting My Feelings
Do you ever just feel completely alone in the world? For maybe a day or so, you want to shut everyone out because they couldn’t possibly understand you, but the next day you’re reaching for them with open arms because you’re tired of being lonely. Do you ever find yourself just lying in bed crying, … More Why Do I Feel This Way?
I used to think I was terrified of change. I don’t know exactly when I grew to realize that this is, in fact, false—at least at this point in time. I feel that I can safely say though, that I do not like change. And yet for the past couple months of my life I’ve … More Everything Has Changed