Drugged

I haven’t spoken to you in days. I constantly pick up my phone to text you, and then remember how unreachable you are. I feel oddly alone. No one else stays up with me till 3am, playing 20 questions and talking about our dreams. No one else knows how to deal with me at my … More Drugged

Emotional

Some days, I want to die. I lay on my bed and forget to breathe, calling people just to cry and waiting for the anxiety to leave me. I examine myself in the mirror, skip meals, avoid my parents. The loneliness is overwhelming, and I cannot cope. Yet, on other days, everything is beautiful. I … More Emotional

Sorry

I love you, I really do. I hurt you because I can’t hurt anyone else. I can’t push anyone else away because they won’t keep trying to stay the way you do. I don’t really feel anything, right now. It’s hard for me to visualize you as a person, to remember why I fell in … More Sorry

Indulgence

The other night, I took a bath. I used a bath bomb and sat until the water grew cold, and then I sat some more, letting the aromas wash over me and ignoring my scattered thoughts. I shaved and moisturized and ran my hands over my silky smooth skin. I whitened my teeth and French-braided … More Indulgence