Drugged

I haven’t spoken to you in days. I constantly pick up my phone to text you, and then remember how unreachable you are. I feel oddly alone. No one else stays up with me till 3am, playing 20 questions and talking about our dreams. No one else knows how to deal with me at my … More Drugged

Emotional

Some days, I want to die. I lay on my bed and forget to breathe, calling people just to cry and waiting for the anxiety to leave me. I examine myself in the mirror, skip meals, avoid my parents. The loneliness is overwhelming, and I cannot cope. Yet, on other days, everything is beautiful. I … More Emotional

Sorry

I love you, I really do. I hurt you because I can’t hurt anyone else. I can’t push anyone else away because they won’t keep trying to stay the way you do. I don’t really feel anything, right now. It’s hard for me to visualize you as a person, to remember why I fell in … More Sorry

Welcome

welcome to high school. this is a place where no one looks forward to life anymore. where everyone has senioritis and bored faces and we all just go through the motions. a place where people contemplate suicide daily, because no matter how beautiful their lives are, their minds are messes. where you’re labeled a “slut” … More Welcome

Irony

“Isn’t it strange,” you say, “how the best people experience the worst pain?” And it’s true, isn’t it? That the sweetest boy is the one who ends up with a broken heart, and it’s the most selfless mother who finds out unexpectedly that she has cancer. The most beautiful girl constantly fights deep insecurities and … More Irony

Monument

We’re a splendid mess, aren’t we? We’ve fought without stopping for days on end. We miscommunicate and say the wrong things and take out our stress on one another. We’ve barely made it through some of our differences–yet here we are, six months later, still deeply in love and still committed.  Today marks half a … More Monument

Logical

A friend told me the other day that I sometimes blur the lines between reality and my emotions. It’s true. I don’t know how I feel. I don’t know how I should feel. I know I used to be loving and easygoing and genuinely happy, but now I blow everything out of proportion. I’m told … More Logical