Grief

it continues to weigh on me. the illness in my head, the heaviness of my soul.   unable to concentrate, i stare aimlessly into my cold mug of tea, watching the calm and unmoving liquid.   how unlike the gravity of my mind, which never stops tossing and turning– it takes so much out of … More Grief

Wasted

i lift my hands to the sky as we drive and sing louder than anyone else, trying to get high on music and vibes.   and when we stop at 1am to eat, i sit in the middle of the table, center of attention. i look in their eyes and laugh.   i am so … More Wasted

Farewell

After a long summer of wondering, waiting, imagining how things would play out, exploring new avenues, discovering myself–I was finally able to say goodbye to everything that still haunted me. I visited Florida, where I left all my memories, and realized why they became memories in the first place. I cried with my dear, lovely … More Farewell

Children

Nothing is the same anymore People grow, children change We’re so much older, with new dreams New clothes, new memories, new pain   We used to be just kids Planning for a future that seemed so far But now all we do is stay out too late To distract us from who we think we … More Children

11:11

do you still wish? do you still dream, on stars and clocks and pennies tossed in fountains? do you miss the way things used to be, when you were happy, free, ungrounded?   am i wasting precious breath? am i silly to attempt a lost art, in being optimistic? am i stupid or a fool, … More 11:11

Kindred

Walk with me Come away to the beach, and let’s dip our toes in the water   Meet me at the coffeeshop on seventh And we’ll get cinnamon lattes and talk for hours   Call me tomorrow at 2am When we’re incoherent and lonely and raw   We could talk about love Or literature, in … More Kindred

Daze

Rain drop Lights off Listening to the quiet throb   My soul afire Lit and sparked But dampened by the drear   Almost empty All dreams disposed Lying near my cup of forgotten tea   Cozy sweaters Yet lonely days I sleep to the murmur of hazy weather   Night, with pen to paper Scrawl … More Daze