Drugged

I haven’t spoken to you in days. I constantly pick up my phone to text you, and then remember how unreachable you are. I feel oddly alone. No one else stays up with me till 3am, playing 20 questions and talking about our dreams. No one else knows how to deal with me at my … More Drugged

Emotional

Some days, I want to die. I lay on my bed and forget to breathe, calling people just to cry and waiting for the anxiety to leave me. I examine myself in the mirror, skip meals, avoid my parents. The loneliness is overwhelming, and I cannot cope. Yet, on other days, everything is beautiful. I … More Emotional

Indulgence

The other night, I took a bath. I used a bath bomb and sat until the water grew cold, and then I sat some more, letting the aromas wash over me and ignoring my scattered thoughts. I shaved and moisturized and ran my hands over my silky smooth skin. I whitened my teeth and French-braided … More Indulgence

Graduation

We took so many pictures, of marching to Pomp and Circumstance. Walking down to accept our diplomas. Throwing our royal blue caps in the air. And just like that, we are no longer children. To ourselves maybe, but not to those watching. Truly, I think we’re all kinda lost. We don’t know where we’re heading, … More Graduation

Inception

Change is difficult. It is also an inevitable, chaotic, and beautiful facet of life. I’ve never experienced so much at one time before, and I don’t know how to handle it or the overwhelming emotions that come with the different experiences. The bittersweet ending of my high school education. Leaving my first job. Getting older … More Inception

Home

A lot happened this past summer. I grew up. I distanced myself. I cut my hair. I changed my mind a few times. I told more people ‘no.’ I learned a few lessons, and forgot a few others. I ran away, and I got a little lost. I couldn’t find where I belonged. At some … More Home

Sparked

I am so inspired. By all of these feelings, all of the experiences, all of the changes. It sparks me into someone else, someone who sees the creativity in everything. I want to write about the expression on your face when I catch your eye from across the room. I want to capture the feeling … More Sparked