they know me as a west coast girl with dyed hair, a thin frame, and a penchant for sushi. i shop at whole foods, and sprouts, and trader joe’s, for gluten free breads and soy substitutes. i fall for soft aesthetics, and listen to indie bands with foreign names that no one has ever heard … More Pretentious


when he touches my shoulder, i am tempted to run right there, right then away from the recollections, and the feeling of worthlessness subconsciously, i am guarded locked away protecting myself from being hurt again so i avoid his gaze cross over to the other side of the room and say hello to someone else … More Guarded


i started adding chai to my plain black tea, and drove 90 miles an hour with all the windows down on my way home last night, just because i felt like it– because i can, because i am no longer bored, because i have unintentionally stumbled across something i didn’t even know i needed. i … More Serendipity


we stood on the outlook over our hometown, wrapped in thick blankets and each others’ arms staring into the distance desperately, hungrily swallowing the desert air and contemplating god, gravity, and city lights   just a few contented, soulful college kids in bomber jackets and worn converse sinking into the edge of the vast twilight … More Infinite


simply existing can feel so empty sometimes that i go stir crazy, waking in the middle of the night staring out my window and contemplating how people come to love themselves and how long it would take to run all the way to the city   i guess i got tired of feeling the chaos … More Radical


they have told me they love my mind, that i have a beautiful soul, and that i am unique. that they are drawn to me, inexplicably and unforgettably. and it is a nice change from simply being called skinny, or attractive. at least, this is what i tell myself, when i am alone, and hating … More Worth


it continues to weigh on me. the illness in my head, the heaviness of my soul.   unable to concentrate, i stare aimlessly into my cold mug of tea, watching the calm and unmoving liquid.   how unlike the gravity of my mind, which never stops tossing and turning– it takes so much out of … More Grief